Accepting myself

hello readers. are there any readers? ahaha nvm just pretend there are sum readers hehe

last few days, i noticed a friend of mine, or maybe i just can use the word younger sister in thn crew webnet, Hazlina_Hanim engaged! wow isnt it a surprise?? but i do think back. she have changed herself i guess. she deserves what she have rite now. as far i knew her, from tidak bertudung type jadi bertudung type, perhaps i bole kata she are more matured than myself. she really is. so dia engaged wif her beloved of course. so she gonna be a wife soon. hehe congratz anyway to her. but one think forsure i realize, hey she is younger than me. and she engagaged. and me? still finding myself? or i didnt even know the real me actually. what am i looking for in lives. goals, missions, aims, desires bla bla all those words which i cant define. even im taking personal development class now haha. and i do still remember what afzan told me. there must be sumone for me, but rite now i just cant see it. oh gosh if i ever have a power, let me see for a while pls?hahaha im not tired being alone coz im not alone in this world. but i do feel alone sumtimes. emptiness. deep inside my heart. empty space.

but sumtimes i realized fast. i keep saying all those positive motivation inside my head. accepting myself unconditionally, rewarding myself when credit is due, and the most important thing is no need luv for hurting myself. i do not want that luv typo. so i guess i just wait and see.